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http://endure-the-unseen.blogspot.com Tears of frustration, she held within So tied down, she's suffocating The mask she wears to hide it all Those suppressed hurts behind the wall Too held up in things, the world passed Oblivious to her hurts inside One day, she finally gave up Sink into despondency Nobody cares, she's torn apart She wanted to become a star Shinning in the sky for others Looking down from the sky Looking back at all the past that happened The tears she cried The hidden feelings she's never shown She wonders if there's really love She wonders if she is worth being loved She wonders if there will be a day where she can fall madly in love Maybe its love Only when there's forever her story Tuesday, May 18, 2010! kind of feel really really tired with everything that's happening around, though when i really think about it, there isn't much school work to do. Jap presentation due in two day den MBS due on friday and HR next monday. but mid-sem's coming up soon too. havent started studying yet. but i think i should. Did alice with chun ying and xinyu they all ytd for about 5 hours, i think it's quite not bad already, just the impact not great enough maybe. HR still got the report :/ how? still need do jap so dont really have time to do the HR report, and i realised today that i still have a business proposal that need to submit though i think not so soon. like totally forgot about it, only rmb goventure. I know/realised that i've been neglacting God a lot. Even going to church and all, feels like it's just a routine for me, idk why is it so recently. But i know that God's always there for me, though sometimes i can't feel it. It's only through faith that we can trust that God's always there, though we can't see him. Praying and hoping he'll bring me through everything. Knowing that he's faithful. Sometimes seeing those younger children in church feeling so happy whenever they are at church, i wonder why i can't be like them, shouldn't be having doubts about God. Instead having the interest in knowing and wanting to hear more about him. The faith and trust that i once have in God, where is it now? am i too caught up with school and friends that i've lost him? Will he still be there when i need him? It's all these doubts that i'm having and trying to find answers to it. Maybe after leaving st.margs it's a little hard to keep faith, cos in a christian school for 10 years and having mostly christian friends around, at least there are people to tell you that God's always there when u're feeling down and all. But now lesser, much lesser. But the faith now is between me and God, not others. Have to find back the feeling that i've lost in God. Cos' only God can be the one giving us strength to continue on in life :) I guess now is the time that my whole family need to have faith and trust in God to be able to move on and hope for the best, hopefully everything will be fine. This is the biggest thing that happened at home for now, hopefully nothing more will happen. But really hope things will turn out better than expected. Can tell that dad's quite worried. praying hard for him. Aunt cecilia and Jerome came over for dinner, jerome wanted to treat us eat pizza :) cos of my sister's birthday. Was really nice of him (: Anw, idk if main exams will crash with piano exams. which if it does i'll be in trouble :/ hope it won't. Alright need continue with Jap. Stop procrastinating! 1 more post to the 500th post on this blog lol. wow. haha. |
girl living in her own world Grace.T September 14th 1992 Ex St.Margs girl Graduated from Smps, Smss Currently studying in Temasek Poly yr 3 BSG(Dip in Bus)!!! ❤ 3B12 (: tse_1992@hotmail.com A girl that is quite emotional! BEWARE! moodswings! ♥ God cos' he love her too! Tied down to church on 021207 Music is what she loves I just simply enjoy being a secondary school girl. And yea, I'm eighteen. You can bold ; italic ; underline & desires - ♥ ___ - Find back myself - Meet up with classmates! - - New wallet that can put pic - iPod Touch - 165cm tall! - new shoes - polaroid - new clothes - - Watch movies > > > > > The Last Song - Sony Cybershot T700 - Go out more with friends! - plan 4e2 class reunion - Go out with Jia qi when she's back - Learn how to play guitar - Get a new pencilcase - Enjoy Poly life in TP (: - Do well in poly and aim not to fail any subjects! - Be loved, feel loved, to love - Be nicer to everyone and myself the best damn thing 4E2 (: Alyssa Carissa Caroline Cherry Jasmine ❤ Karen ❤ Marion Oviyum Sandra Sasha Tia Yan ping School Mates :D Arlene Amanda Aretha Charite Elaine Genevive Gloria Iman (: Jean Julia (: Olivia Pei lin Priscilla Si min Tricia Vera Church (= Bkccy Hong ting Hui min❤ Hui qi Jia qi (: Jie rui Jie si Jun le Sock ling Vanessa Yi qi Hui min ❤ 1B12 Alstar Choon yip Kerine Melody Michelle Nabila Noreen Zhijun (: 2B15 Winnie Seniors in SMSS ((: Ling Yogam Smps Friends/Other Friends ((: Audrey Austin Chris Hao ning Kimberly Nic tan Rebecca [: Vincent Xin yu Link leave a note archives May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 May 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 January 2012 March 2012 credits designer 1 2 3 icons: i forgot. tell me if you know [: |