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http://endure-the-unseen.blogspot.com Tears of frustration, she held within So tied down, she's suffocating The mask she wears to hide it all Those suppressed hurts behind the wall Too held up in things, the world passed Oblivious to her hurts inside One day, she finally gave up Sink into despondency Nobody cares, she's torn apart She wanted to become a star Shinning in the sky for others Looking down from the sky Looking back at all the past that happened The tears she cried The hidden feelings she's never shown She wonders if there's really love She wonders if she is worth being loved She wonders if there will be a day where she can fall madly in love Maybe its love Only when there's forever her story Monday, March 05, 2012! Poly seem to have ended for me. It seems so unreal that it's over, like I just went into poly not long ago but now it's all over and done. Just hope that my sem 3.2 results won't be too disappointing. poly life ended, feel a bit lost, not knowing what my future is going to be, should I work or go into university? I don't really want to study but I guess there isn't much of a choice cos' in Singapore if don't study it's quite difficult to find a job that has good income and all. shall pray and see what God plans. Still feeling quite guilty about what has happened. but shall try not to think too much about it. If God is willing to answer it he will, if not no matter how hard I pray about it, it won't help. only make me feel more worried and anxious. Shall trust God and leave it to him. Also I want to go for church camp in June, and also the youth one that we're still planning for. Since now I have the time, shall spend more on church stuff and PIANO. taking piano exam again makes me worried. very much. wonder how I can prepare for it. seriously not wanting to retake grade 8 cos' I don't think I have much time to spend on piano lessons. have more important things to do. need some directions in life. wonder what I should do. and I'm glad that I was able to talk to yufei ytd though it was only a while, at least I could tell someone about it, just hope that it won't be spread around. time to have lunch? lazy to cook. practice piano, mop floor? clean my room? lazy though :/ Friday, January 20, 2012! Though this whole week and last week was quite stressful and tough, at least it's over. POE, Legal and MA2 Paper, finally all over. though legal test was really screwed. oh and the IB Quiz that :) helped me with ytd, knowing that I was stressed out and that I still have so many upcoming projects and deadlines to meet. CNY won't really be a relieve but at least a little more than now. Will be super busy after CNY till exams or graduation I guess. Another MA2 test (20%) to take, IB test, POE Individual Journal, projects projects and projects. wonder when will all these end. though I really don't like studying, especially for tests and exams, but I rather stay as a student now, knowing the graduating feeling isn't good :( And besides all these, still have to face all the problems around me. sometimes I just can't help but wonder why can't my family try to understand me better, why must I quarrel with my sister. Is not that I want to, but does she even try to understand? I'm not trying to pick a fight with her everyday after coming home but does she even know that I fell sick? Sometimes I really can't help but feel sad. Maybe is my fault, for not spending enough time with them. wonder what I'm supposed to do to please everyone. Maybe what I do will never be enough, trying to give all my best but still fail. Just feel really tired now, only if I could have a really good rest for a day. Feel like I've been tiring myself out for quite a while. Time to go back to God. Monday, January 16, 2012! Tuesday, November 29, 2011! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN JIA! :D Sunday, September 18, 2011! Tuesday, September 13, 2011! I'm just hoping that tmr won't be a bad day. hope that nothing will screw up tmr. if not I think my mood will be totally spoilt. Doesn't feel like my birthday's in about 2-3 hours time. First time not feeling that much. Maybe is cos i know that i shouldn't be expecting too much for my birthday this year. everyone's busy with internship, how much is a birthday compared to it? Worried, Scared, Nervous, Butterflies in stomach and everything is like making me not able to enjoy my birthday. Only wish now is for internship to go smoothly. Sleeping early tonight. have to wake up early no matter what happens tmr. now i'm really scared and worried for tmr. Oh so I should wish Grace David a early HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D first. my same name same birthday sister! (: Hope everything's going smoothly for you! All the best in everything. Stay pretty and happy yeah? <3<3<3 Wednesday, September 07, 2011! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES AND NICHOLAS! (: Monday, August 29, 2011! time to study for event's paper! need to get an A to pull up my grades. let's hope for the best! :D All the best for all those taking their exams! (: looking forward to many things but i think i'll need a break after event's paper first. tired. will you be my eternal love? Sunday, August 14, 2011! need to really do well for MA and EM for exams. Want to get at least a B+ for EM and idk just try my best for MA. Quite scared for MA though :/ Don't want to re-take module. really don't want. Need to also start preparing for end of year youth retreat. like so many things to do, need to book the place, find the right things to do and a lot more. planning and planning. to be done soon. can I trust that this time this will last? It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe Caught up in this moment Caught up in your smile I've never opened up to anyone So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms We don't need to rush this Let's just take it slow Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight Just a touch of the fire burning so bright No I don't want to mess this thing up I don't want to push too far Just a shot in the dark that you just might Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight I know that if we give this a little time It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight Just a touch of the fire burning so bright And I don't want to mess this thing up I don't want to push too far Just a shot in the dark that you just might Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight No I don't want to say goodnight I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams Tonight Tonight Tonight Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight Just a touch of the fire burning so bright No I don't want to mess this thing up I don't want to push too far Just a shot in the dark that you just might Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight With a kiss goodnight Kiss goodnight Friday, July 22, 2011! Sunday, July 17, 2011! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEXTER & CECILIA! ((: 17 people today like wow! ^^ BBQ was fun :D though most of us were quite tired. plus tmr still need go back school chiong Events project. tiring week ahead. Mentoring today was quite okay, been long since i updated my blog. many things happened. don't even have time for me to realise it and all is gone/ has changed. So little time left before SIP. don't feel like going for SIP. rather study :( Anw, projects and presentations drive people crazy. especially us lol. makes us go insane, do and talk weird/funny stuff. lol. I need my sleep badly. Hope soon I can catch up with it. Now is time to do project again. or perhaps tmr morning? haha. anw xihua left for australia, jiaqi's coming back soon though! :D but it's just for about a week. damn sad. will there be a day that I can tell you how I really feel? Tuesday, July 05, 2011! I regret not able to talk to you for the last time before you left. Regret not telling you more about God. Regret not spending time with you. Regret many things. But it's all too late ): That day that you left, I wondered. What did I ever do for you that I can feel proud of, but nothing came to my mind. I only remembered that you were worried very much for Dad. For uncle and gugu. I know it was a tough battle for you, you didn't make it through but I'm glad that at least my dad and all those that were important to you were there with you. I just hope you have no more regrets in this world. I will take care of dad, take care of uncle and everyone. Don't worry grandma. I love you. that's something I really regret not telling you. Never knew that you were important to me, until you left :'( It's always when you lose something that you learn that it is important. I will treasure everyone around me. Will do all I can to fulfil your wish. I'll look after dad, try to change him to a better person. I pray that he will change, at least for you. I really hope that he will. The fact that you left will slowly sink in, but I still can't seem to accept it. Seems like it was all just a dream. I wish you were happy before you left, wish that I can let you enjoy life better. But it's too late now. Tuesday, June 28, 2011! so many things to do but so little time. no idea what to do for SIT yet. hope I can finish events tmr. and MA tutorial also haven't do. how. so many things that have yet to be done. Dad say grandma isn't doing that well. what can I do to help her? :( Visit her when I can is the most I can do now I guess. Mum also said that grandma isn't eating well. why all of them fall sick now? ): Soooooooo many things on my mind. no idea what to start doing yet. God I need help. oh kind of forgot that we're suppose to get back our results this week. hope won't do that badly. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HELMI! :D Hope you enjoy your day today! (: and maybe try to not be so evil to me next time. hahaha. Wednesday, June 22, 2011! 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girl living in her own world Grace.T September 14th 1992 Ex St.Margs girl Graduated from Smps, Smss Currently studying in Temasek Poly yr 3 BSG(Dip in Bus)!!! ❤ 3B12 (: tse_1992@hotmail.com A girl that is quite emotional! BEWARE! moodswings! ♥ God cos' he love her too! Tied down to church on 021207 Music is what she loves I just simply enjoy being a secondary school girl. And yea, I'm eighteen. You can bold ; italic ; underline & desires - ♥ ___ - Find back myself - Meet up with classmates! - - New wallet that can put pic - iPod Touch - 165cm tall! - new shoes - polaroid - new clothes - - Watch movies > > > > > The Last Song - Sony Cybershot T700 - Go out more with friends! - plan 4e2 class reunion - Go out with Jia qi when she's back - Learn how to play guitar - Get a new pencilcase - Enjoy Poly life in TP (: - Do well in poly and aim not to fail any subjects! - Be loved, feel loved, to love - Be nicer to everyone and myself the best damn thing 4E2 (: Alyssa Carissa Caroline Cherry Jasmine ❤ Karen ❤ Marion Oviyum Sandra Sasha Tia Yan ping School Mates :D Arlene Amanda Aretha Charite Elaine Genevive Gloria Iman (: Jean Julia (: Olivia Pei lin Priscilla Si min Tricia Vera Church (= Bkccy Hong ting Hui min❤ Hui qi Jia qi (: Jie rui Jie si Jun le Sock ling Vanessa Yi qi Hui min ❤ 1B12 Alstar Choon yip Kerine Melody Michelle Nabila Noreen Zhijun (: 2B15 Winnie Seniors in SMSS ((: Ling Yogam Smps Friends/Other Friends ((: Audrey Austin Chris Hao ning Kimberly Nic tan Rebecca [: Vincent Xin yu Link leave a note archives May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 May 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 January 2012 March 2012 credits designer 1 2 3 icons: i forgot. tell me if you know [: |